A very upsetting truth

Today, is a day that I, for once felt that, I am very unhappy working in that place. All along, I thought that as long as I dun bother too much, dun interfere too much, nothing will happen. But I'm so so wrong. When it wants to come, it will find its way to u, no matter what.

Searching my conscience, i can say I've never did anything wrong to anyone there. I do my job, do my part to please the people, take the bad things myself. Never once did I tell people the bad things I took. But why do people have to push things the hard way? The more I ignore, the more they want to push. I did not want to bother. Just put on a smile and do what I should do. But they have to put pricks in their words and sentences, until I can only grip my heart and cry inside. Can only tell myself to 'tolerate girl...tolerate...'

What did I do wrong? To say things plainly, fuck it if u are no good. Dun be jealous or blame people for your 'lost'. In fact, when u still have it, treasure it. Your fucking jealousy will cause u to lose everything. Improve if u think u are no good, not blame others for being better than u.

I'm not interested in any of your boyfriends. I AM NOT INTERESTED. If u are so afraid, keep them at home, locked away in the safe box.

I have retreated enough. If u push further, I'm not going to give anymore face. I dun give a damn anymore. I have had my share of disgusted hurt and pain. I dun need anymore from anyone. I am fine and happy alone. So dun worry. I will not snatch. If I want to, U dun stand a chance AT ALL.

After 1 week of waiting...

Got back my ride...changed a new look to it. Not really a whole new one, but, different. Individuals will have different thoughts and perspective bout it. But no worries. As long as I like. Haha... Since I don't need to change the colour of the car, I just changed the colour of the body kit. A bit crazy, and a bit loud.

I still think the pink is a little too loud. But I had to match the colour of the VG. If not it'll be even wierd. So I've no choice...It takes a while to register.

Well, Now I only hope and pray that friends around will be safe and sound. That day heard that Edwin Bro accident same day as me. Haiz...Well, I really duno what to think. Then Ken, Cynthia...then...Dennis' Xiao Long just died like that.

Hope this'll stop soon...The feeling sucks!

Car Accident on 1.30am 10.07 2009

Well, as the title says, ya...I met with an accident on 10 July 2009. It was a most mysterious accident that has ever happened. Till now none of us can totally depict and explain how the whole thing can happen and how the damages came about.


The damages were all on the left hand side...hmm...the typres BURST and the rims broke. Ya, broke. Well, I'm fine. Unscathed. Unbelievable? Tell me bout it. The whole car ran over the central divider, but it didn't flip.

I'm not even unwell or anything. Amazing? Haha! I shan't go into the details as I reaaly don't know if I should say it. But I can only say that supernatural forces are in presence and doing their job. I'm just lucky.


In the end, when everything was done and car towed away, it was already 4.30am... What a tiring night. Then the Friday and Sat is busy, busy and busy with the workshop. Went online to look for rims and all. But, all those that I really like don't have stock.

End up, I had to go to the shop to see... All in all, its a tiring and vexful ordeal...haiz...

Million of thanks to Jason for the help that he had rendered during this ordeal.

Blood Donation cum various activities

Yupz!! Went for my tri-monthly once blood donation. Hmm, I would say blood donation does gets one addicted. At least for me...Every time after a blood donation, I'm like simply cannot wait for the next donation to come. But then have to wait for 3mths...kinda long. Haha... The nurse say I very cute. Where got people look forward to blood donation de...hahaz!

The doctor was asking me, whether I know my weight. I told him I had no idea. He then took my weight, and, to my surprise, I had lost 3kg from 10.04.09 to 16.05.09. How can that be? To lose 3kg within a month with no exercise plus some supper...hmmz...I think I did magic. Woohoo~ =P

But the doctor tell me to eat more if not, further less on the weight I might not meet the minimum for donation. After that the nurse tell me the same thing. So I went for lunch after that, and had 2 bowls of seafood noodle soup! And have been eating alot this past week. Hmm...I think I could have gotten back the 3kg...lolz...

At night, I went for Teochew Porridge buffet supper with my parents, uncle and auntie. Eat and Eat...then went to boat quay to meet Thomas Tay...drink and drink... But Sunday was a healthy day...Brought my nephew and niece, along with Auntie Helen and my Cousin Edwin, we went swimming playground. Was there the whole day relaxing. Haha...

We're going again this Sunday, but before that, we are going for a badminton session. I've booked the courts already! So enthusiastic bout it...haha...Sat will be good also...meeting 'Uncle' Zo for dinner...long time no see him le...morning going for facial...haha...haven't been free to go...

Ooopz...just did a check...hopefully my 'auntie' don't come soon...next week ba...after Sunday....if not cannot go swimming le...haiz...

*Cheers**

A Night of Fun + A Sense of Lost...

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The night that can be said as the most crazy night I had after I regained my Single status. Haha~ For so long, I hadn't had the mood to dress up, to get crazy and have fun...But that night was Melissa's birthday. Haven't seen this Sis of mine for 2 years. So I have to...at least dress up as a form of respect right? Haha...

Went to Boat Quay earlier....Saw Niki and her sis...omg...haven't seen this crazy girl for so long already...lolz~ We had so much fun chatting...Though that was the first time I saw her sis, its like we had known each other for life...talk and talk, laugh and laugh non-stop...I really hadn't had so much laughter in such a long long time...How I miss that night...

Went to V3, saw 2 long lost friend - Desmond and Jiarong - Oh Gosh...Those were the times...The feeling is so good...to see your long time friends again...Went crazy at V3. But, mid way I hopped over to Shin Bar to look for Thomas Tay...Sorry I had to use surname here as there were 2 Thomas with me that day...haha...But I had fun talking to them and being so nonsense...just so not me but yet, I think that's me...heehee...

Went back to v3, then after which, went back to Chillz...Initially only Melissa and Jack followed...but then, Jiarong came, Angelia and Ben appeared, Santa, Mike all came...I was like, WOW! What a group! All went crazy that night...as usual, Santa was very high already...haha...but managed to chat with me. Everyone was having so much fun...

The only thing is that I don't know when I dropped my money. Never even take out from my pocket once. Pocket no other things. Don't understand how it can drop. So heart pain. All was well...then Emily had to dedicate this song which I forgot what title it is already, but the lyrics fit in so so nicely into my situation with him, I teared again...haiz...Spoiled the night by myself...I cannot be like this anymore!!!!!! I'm sure I can do it!!! And I'm gonna do it faster than Thomas Boy!!! Bleahz!!!

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Hmm...Mother's Day. But I'm not going to blog bout Mothers...This night, I went drinking with Aunty Helen, Uncle William, my cousin Edwin, Aric, my little niece and nephew and Thomas Boy...It was...good...I haven't drank with Edwin for ages...at least 6yrs...He was caved in for 5yrs by a relationship...Thus he asked me to go drinking and go sing songs for him...haha...

Glad everyone got along...and those 2 small fellas...haha...vying to sing songs...sing hokkien songs some more...hit of the night...haha...taught them how to play pool...laughing all the way till we leave...Oh how I love 'em!

Tormenting times...

Don't understand why is everything against me now? The things I want seems like will never happen. Things I don't want all happening 1 by 1. There are alot of things I know are not within my control but I'm really secretly fighting for what I want. I don't know how long it'll take but as long as I persevere I think I will succeed. Even Santa says so.

Saw some photos in FB, and felt upset over it. I shouldn't be but I just cannot help but feel upset. Everything is changing too quickly. I shouldn't have been so silly. Its not wrong to call me Silly Ger...really too damn silly...so big girl already still let my friends worry bout me, still 转牛角尖. I really have to stop being like this.

I know alot of people have misunderstnadings against me, but I don't really care. What rights do these people have to say me when they don't even know me well? I don't need fake people to act like they care when they don't really care. And friends who really care, I sincerely appreciate and thank you all from the bottom of my broken heart.

Am going drinking again if I'm not wrong tonight. I'm exhausted, not alcoholic. I don't care. I don't have a problem. You are the one with a problem. My problem is that you gave me my problem. I'm gonna eat my hearts out and forget all these!!

The most Unlucky period!!!

Recently really don't know 走什么霉运。Very unlucky... Relationship went downhill and sank all in a matter of minutes, career mode changed overnight, car got into trouble twice in a matter of a week. Boss everyday ki siao, getting worse and worse everyday, until I'm scared I cannot tolerate anymore.

This morning left my house for work, then saw that some bo liao pranksters went to disturb the cars in my neighbourhood. They tore my car's eyelids out. It's the first time my car ever got this kind of thing. Last time stay in AMK also nothing happened before. Though I had already wanted to remove them at the end of the year before my next inspection, still, its very heartpain that the poor Darling had to be disturbed and disfigured like that. I dun understand why these people have to do it? What does it benifit them? How does it benifit them by hurting other people? WHY do people have to choose to hurt others when they can love others?

Now wana spray my car also cannot afford to anyhow spend the money. But I don't want help from others also. Afterall it's my thing and I dun wana trouble these dear people. Probably I shouldn't have went home so early. If I had stayed at Boat Quay till late then my car could have been spared. But still, I believe they'll be back to disturb. So insecure. That poor Darling... Owner got hurt then now her turn to get hurt.

Suckers out there!!! Please be kind to people can? Don't be such a LOSER!! &@*$#%*$%@#$